Sleepless in Covington

Some people visibly cringe the moment they realize that "this night" there're in for a sleepless, merciless, dissection of minutes that define each bedtime hour! Now, my irresistible husband uses my physical presence as a security blanket, a "sexy, smooth, warm, curvaceous, tempting... so you can rest medicine" if you will. So when my moment of realization sets in, yes, I feel that twinge of guilt that accompanies my confession that on this night: you're on your own, sweet love! Not only am I wide-eyed awake, so are all of my 5 other personalities! But I'm reminded of a conversation I had once with a strange yet oddly surreal woman who once told me that when you find yourself awake when you're desperately seeking REM sleep, that this was the Holy Spirit calling on you as a Christian to pray for someone in need. Just think-when I'm up, those in need have 6 extra prayers at night! I'm only to happy to assist. You never know when I may be in the market for your prayers! God Bless...

Labor Day: A labor of love...

Every year, millions of people get to take a day off from the hustle and bustle that we call a "job". Today, I not only get to enjoy another day "off" but get to spend additional quality time with my husband, children, and friends. Take a moment to give thanks to God for this opportunity, as so many others are not so fortunate. Without a doubt, I am incredibly blessed beyond my worth!

Happy Anniversary, my love...

Twenty years is a long time to some people. So is eternity. I have been married to my husband/best friend for 20 years and until it's eternity, I won't feel as though it's been long enough. I love him passionately and cannot imagine any life without him in it. I can thank God for blessing me over and over again but God knew what he was doing when he provided me with such a wonderful friend, husband, lover, and partner. I'm not alone. Thank you Lord.

Good days and bad days...

People often ask me "How have you been doing?". Deep down, I really just want to say, "Still hurting, you?", but that wouldn't really be honest, would it? Some days, well, they're really good. My pain is always there but manageable. Other days, I'm reminded that I'm not the same as I was, different than I'll be tomorrow, and wishing I was unconscious today! It is hard on the people we care about because they try but are unable to truly understand. It is hard on those who rely on us because even though they try to be understanding we are needed. In the end, no one will wish I was better, than me.

Soul Mates

As I watch the man I love,
Sleep and dream yet not in good health
My heart is burdened by fear unknown
That only God can fill.

Things we don't understand and
Knowledge we choose to ignore
My friend, lover. My half of me..
Please be safe, please grow strong, please know God has you in His hands.

I can't live without you, my love.
Forever on earth is not long enough
Eternity in Heaven is a dream to fulfill
Surrounded by the glory of God and His promise fulfilled.

All the love in me has been provided by you and even you brought me back to God when I was lost.
For all great things in life come at at cost.
Jesus loves our children but blesses our marriage.
I touch you ever so gently in the night with the strange sounds in the backgroup of the IV drip and you seem so delicate. I feel like craddling you in my arms and reassuring myself that YOU know just how much YOU mean to me and how blessed i so truly am.

Chronic Pain

Do you live with Chronic Pian? I do. I have a triple cervical fushion and permanent nerve damage in the occipital nerves causing cervicogenic headaches. These leave you wishing the 2ND coming of Christ would really hurry along. I have just received yet another surgery having a spinal cord simulator implanted to help with the pain. Its really too early in this procedure to see if its working yet but nights like these I am unable to get any sleep. Tell me what you have....and how have you managed to cope with it.

Pain is the darkness that keeps us from the Light
Pain is the vise that helps give up the fight
Acceptance is often difficult to bear
It is like our own cross to wear
Show me what i should do
Does pain ravage you too?

Why are words so important?

Words have the ability to lift a soul straight to heaven yet also have the despairing strength to plummet you straight into hell. Why is this? And what about our imagination? We can dig deep into ourselves and come up with the most intense creation. I am so excited to begin my very own exploration.